Summer 2012

What's for my summer this 2012?? OMG!!! Nothings good happen!! I want to go out with my friends, go out of beach.,.have some fun..but i cant.

Still busy for other works.. etc. And the other thing is, our graduation is very late.. Hoping soon or by the end of march we can go out..(cross finger)

Really excited, having fun.. as we did last summer:)

i miss you so much..

I miss you when something really good happens, because you're the one I want to share it with. I miss you when something is troubling me, because you're the one who understands me so well. I miss you when I laugh and cry, because I know that you are the one that makes my laughter grow, and my tears disappear. I miss you all the time, but I miss you the most when I lay awake at night, and think of all the wonderful times that we spent with each other for those were some of the best and most memorable times of my life....tresha.08/30/10.8;00pm

Sorry..

Last night me and my auntie are talking about my grandfather. We reminisce some happy times that we had when my grandfather are still alive.. We share some happy thoughts.. We almost cry..Its hard to let go of some one we love..

Someone whose been there in your entire life. Someone who give you everything, even his time to rest when he is tired from work.. he always there to give some funny jokes.. i miss my grandfather so much..

My grandfather died because of stroke. He is working one day when it happened. He rush in the hospital with my auntie and my cousin. They were crying. The worst thing is, when my mother call me that my grandfather is in the hospital, i ignore it, because that time i was with my friends having a good time. Then the next day.. we came in the hospital, i was crying when i walking up the stairs. My grandfather in in the ICU. He is lying in the bed, he is just like sleeping..no pain.. just sleeping. But he is dying inside, he couldn't talk.. he could move..When the visiting hour is open, i came inside the ICU. I just hold his hands, trying not to cry..i didn't say any words to my grandfather.. i just keep saying " tatay..tatay..tatay.." I didn't know that, those were be the last that i will be with my grandfather. I feel so down.. I feel so much guilt. I hate my self for that. Im sorry tatay..

JUST A SUDDEN

I meet this guy in a social network.. then we started texting, for almost a month. Then last February14, 2012, he wanted to see me but im not available on that time because im having a date with my best friends. Then he texted me again that day and its almost midnight, and that time i decided to see him. Then we go in his place with his friend then we talk, actually were already close to each other because we always text-ed each other, we often share some thoughts, hmm actually some funny and silly thoughts. Then that time, we have some drinks, and im  tipsy.. coz i skip dinner..so that night..after we have some drinks, we talk in private.. only me and him..he said he is falling in love with me.and he like me very much..when i heard him sayingthose words i feel nothing..but im kinda shocks..im asking myself why he is saying those words, its only our first time to see each other..maybe he is drunk..but he is serious. im in silent coz i don't know what im going to response to him.. the he ak me again..he wanted to court me..and then im totally shock..im speechless..but then on that night.. i said yes to him..then we are girlfriend and boyfriend in just an hour. That night i feel the respect. i feel that he really loves and like me.. even though that night.. i only pretend that im totally drunk and sleeping..he didn't do anything..then on the next morning..we woke up.. then he send me home..my head is really achingbecause of hang over. and on that day also.. he texted me.. he want to see me.. so i approached him.. he treat me on a dinner in a fast food:) and that was our first date:) im so happy that day.. the after we ate we go in their house.. i meet new friends.. a bunch of friends:) hahahhaha..then days past.. we often see each other...we used to be happy..very very happy..we go out on date..hang outs and others..were so happy... but not all story have a happy ending..its just a week, we have a quarrel..or somehow misunderstanding or lets just call it out of love?? i don't know what happened..its all just a sudden..(MAYBE I SHOULD NOT WRITE THE REAL REASON..BECAUSE EVEN I.. I DON'T KNOW WHAT..)

.so tomorrow is February 15.. it supposed to our 1st monthsary..i miss him so much..everyday i wake up,, im always asking myself "why"? i wanted to cry but.. maybe he doesn't deserve my tears..maybe i should be strong for my self..i love him..but that was yesterday..i miss him but that was yesterday..i should thank him for being a part of my life..for being some of the best part of my life...and i thank him for hurting me...and i just prove to myself how strong am i...